In recent months I have felt an overwhelming sense that I don’t really have a place I can be completely myself with no restrictions. I know I am not the only one who feels this and that’s what has brought me here. I hit rock bottom for the 3rd time in my life over the Christmas period (2017) and now I’m clawing my way back I have decided to start an online journal.
There will be plenty of time to get to know me as I move forward, so I’ll keep this fairly brief. I’m 27, live with my fiance, 12 year old west highland terrier and 3 year old black cat. I adore reading and want to become an author but since my breakdown I have lost all interest in everything, even these two first loves of mine (reading and writing). I’ve had two blogs before but this one will be different, or at least I hope it will. The other two were about specific subjects (one books/reading the other mental health specifically anxiety and depression). This blog I open and start with just one goal; To write honestly and freely.
The original title for this blog was going to be “Silver Linings of a Cloudy Mind” and was going to be about giving a daily silver lining while posting about events, feelings and difficult situations. I felt this would be too restrictive though and so I landed on Fairy Kissed Daisy. As I walked my dog today I saw a bunch of daisies some with purple tipped petals. When I was a little girl I would make daisy chains with my Gran and she would tell me that a daisy that has purple tipped petals had been kissed by fairies. I spent years searching for the fairies in her garden and the name seemed perfect for this blog while I search for a way back to myself; a task that seems almost as impossible as finding those little fairies.
I don’t have a posting schedule, I don’t even have a big plan. I haven’t made any changes to the blogs theme or look yet. All I can tell you right now is that for the first time in a long time I am excited. I feel like this is the beginning of a journey to something better for me – I’m ready to embrace the ups, downs and everything in between.
So here we go, day 1 – post, the first.